My mind a wreak,
meandering from one thought to another.
Nothing around me making sense
No one capable of drowning me out of my thoughts.
Insomnia winning all battles,
Darkness, lethargy, hopelessness
All feelings not foreign since am all used to.
Want to wake up, eyes open but brain dead.
Tick tock, time ticks
Tear droplets, seizure feels,masochistic.
Crumbling anxiety, reverse nightmare….
All weary, sun shines
I know I lost, but still hold on tight
One step at a time, I put the pen on paper
knowing I can do it, can’t quit, I reassure her
“why me?” A goner for words
Climbing the walls, fighting alone
Keep going, I pat she